handinjury said:

dreadkill said:

hey man,
i feel the same way. i just got a new job. the work isn't bad, but the commute sucks, and the pay sucks (especially for someone who double majored in college and worked my ass off in school). i look at all the ugly, downtrodden-looking people on the train everyday and think "we're off to the rat race again, chasing elusive dollars and happiness." i feel trapped. i feel like i don't have time to do what i want to do or be with the people i care about. i feel lonely all day, on a train full of people and in the office i share with people i have almost nothing in common with. My body feels old too. i have uncontrollable eczema that itches all day, and an uncontrollable acid reflux problem that really hinders my singing, and singing is my favorite thing to do with my time. it used to be my only solace when life got me down and now i have trouble with it. i can't really drink booze anymore (another one of my favorite things to do) because of the acid reflux. i also feel like i have developed ADD, as well as social anxiety disorder, to go along with undiagnosed depression.

so, to sum it up, i relate to what you are going through. i am trying hard to help myself and seeking help for the things that are too overwhelming to deal with on my own.

good luck with everything. hopefully, we'll be happier soon. keep working at it.

Dude seriously...are you my twin(gemini)?? Fucking A , i thought i was reading own post!
acid reflux problem: i have that shit, a few yrs back i had really bad problem with that and some disease i still dont now what it is yet(doctors are great, its either chrones or coliedis???- basiclly there is irratation at the end of my large intestine) I wouldnt have to eat anything and i was totally bloated in pain all day everyday. Try the purple pill- nexum, that shit helped a alittle after like 3 months, increase your fiber, stay away from OJ- soda- beer-pasta sauce-chocolate, do not induce burping. (It did hurt to sing/growl-no air w/pain). I had all kinds of tests (colonoscope, endoscope,etc) You got to look at your diet brother, i was eating like crap(fast food, microwave dinners, no vegtables, chocolate everything, all the junk) lifestyle (50hr+ work week, stressed out, un-controllable anxiety, no exersice, smoking to much weed, depression, lack of proper sleep, constant bickering w/ the GF, drinking) At one point i was taking 7 pills a day.
I suffered with that shit for like 2 yrs.(those were some horrible yrs)

"social anxiety disorder, to go along with undiagnosed depression".
Fuck man, that shit is really hard to fight off, i cope so much better now.

I recomend you see a gastroenterologist.
Good luck w/ everything.